I Might Love The Idea Of You

 

Just some thoughts, because I was listening to John Mayer's Hummingbird and immediately these questions ran through my mind again....

This is kind of a poem and I don't have my guitar with me so I can't show you my amazing songwriting talent. I'll just leave it like this.

Backgrounder: John Mayer's lyrics say "just because I didn't want her, doesn't mean I want her to go"

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I'm so, so confused 

I don't know what this is 

And I'm waiting for it to go away 

It's been years and then suddenly 

It all came back to me 

But I haven't even seen you for a while 

So what does it mean? 

I might love the idea of you 

Or my made up version of you 

Or maybe I did love you 

At some shallow level 

So yeah, it wasn't deep enough 

Never allowed it to be 

But to say I don't care enough 

Doesn't mean I want you to leave 

Maybe John was onto something 

Something he's telling me 

That one day I'll wake up lonely 

Knowing you'll be someone's only 

Ending what-could-have-been

One day like today 

But the feeling's the same 

It's like it is, but not quite 

Somewhat dawn, somewhat night 

Am I okay? 

Is it alright? 

To entertain these thoughts 

Let myself get lost 

On a "maybe" 

On a "seems like"