Before

Just something that came to me last night when I was about to sleep. It's kind of a wishful thinking, I guess, that someone can actually make you believe. That someone could make you turn away from your fears and not look back. :)

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Before,

I was used to saying it all boils down to myself;

Just me, and no one else.

I had believed we all just looked after ourselves;

Every man for himself.

I was an island, and I was fine with that.

But had I known about you,

I would have changed my point of view.

Something about your eyes that assure.

You say my place is secure...

That my heart wouldn't know pain.

Even though I still doubt your sincerity, 

Everytime the fear inside me resurfaces,

You only need to hold my hand,

And I feel at ease again.

Please never change.

Please keep me.

Keep needing me,

Keep wanting me.

Please keep returning my embraces with a tighter hug.

Please keep looking at me in daze and puzzlement,

Like when you said you no longer understood why,

You just knew I've taken a part of your life -- if not all of it.

Please. Just, please.

Because I'm not as strong as I was before.

I have become vulnerable.

I have shed off my armor and bared my life,

All for your taking.

I was an island, 

But the sea brought you to me.

My willful castaway.

I may remain hesitant,

But no longer lonely.

No longer alone.

Not like before.

Not anymore.