Letter To The Universe

"My mistake was in thinking that the world owes me."

Thank you for life. And the chance to make something out of it. But as you already know, I failed to make more out of what you gave me. And I tried to seek for answers, but you seem to be busy, or have just given up on me. I wouldn't blame you, what with all my mistakes. But if you have time, maybe you can hear my cry.

I don't know what's happening, and I have apparently lost all reason to laugh, or the will to hope. I don't talk about it because they never listen. I smile because that's the only expression others would understand. They will tell me it's okay not because they know it will, nor do they sincerely wish it will. It is a command to be okay, because feeling sad makes other people uncomfortable. They will pat me on the back and tell me it's going to be fine to dismiss my drama and move on with their lives.

Ugh, I should have never known kindness, had I known it would backfire. I have sacrificed a lot. I thought that at the end, the satisfaction will be worth all the hurt. But it only deprived me of my happiness. I put others before me, thinking that I'm making the world a better place. And now that I've come to collect--no, I was actually just asking the world...you...to do me one favor for once--I got ignored.

I guess, my mistake was in thinking that the world owes me. But it only asked me favors and then walked away, not even turning to see my face, or ask who I was. But honestly, after all the yes-es I've given, don't my no's deserve to be acknowledged?

P.S. Just the usual rant. Anyway, life goes on.